Hello, Beloved.
My heart is much more at peace this evening than it was just a couple of days ago. You have granted a good sliver of sunshine both days, and I was able to get out and walk without a sweatshirt for three days in a row, at least for a while. I look forward to having several days in a row where I won't even think about putting on a sweatshirt or sweater. Perhaps those days are not so very far away.
Here you'll find the ponderings, prayers, reflections and visions of a seminary graduate seeking to understand, and to walk in, the way of the Christ. If you share my work or photos, please remember to cite your source. I'll do the same for you. Thank you.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Growing in the Light
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Thursday, June 23, 2011
Walking the Way
Oh Lord,
I can't sleep tonight. I'm angry! I'm angry that I can't find a place to land in the Church. I'm angry that I'm feeling alone, and that so many people are arguing with one another over whose Church it really is. The details are in my journal this evening, but there are areas in the churches around me that are making me hurt, and because I feel hurt I write in anger. It's not directed at anyone but You, because You are the only one that can handle the depth of my emotions.
*sigh*
Oh Lord, have mercy!
Ah, Lord, I feel like my ministerial visioning is a bit like the weather in Seattle. I get a glimpse of hope, sunshine and clarity, and then the rainclouds of reality come and separate me from the vision for a while. The vision always comes back, and I know it's there in the distance, but there are days that are darker than others, and there are times when the clouds are simply very, very heavy.
Today is one of those days, Beloved.
I'm glad that You are with me today. I'm glad that You walk me through the dark valley when I'm there, and that You allow me to wrestle with You when I'm angry with Your peoples. Forgive me for the times that I take my anger out on them instead of You. Help me to be more creative with my interactions, and to use my imagination to heal where woundedness is clearly evident.
I hope that day comes soon.
Show me, Sophia-Spirit, what I can do to help the world draw closer to our Beloved. I desire to work with You, not against You. Help me to see through Your eyes. Amen.
I can't sleep tonight. I'm angry! I'm angry that I can't find a place to land in the Church. I'm angry that I'm feeling alone, and that so many people are arguing with one another over whose Church it really is. The details are in my journal this evening, but there are areas in the churches around me that are making me hurt, and because I feel hurt I write in anger. It's not directed at anyone but You, because You are the only one that can handle the depth of my emotions.
*sigh*
Lord, please, give Your Church guidance, vision and inspiration. We are so lost. People around here don't know You because we in the Church are so focused on digging our heels into the ground and fighting one another. We use manipulative techniques to try and deprive each other of power. We don't recognize any denominations except our own. We can't even seem to reconcile differences within our own congregations.
Oh Lord, have mercy!
Ah, Lord, I feel like my ministerial visioning is a bit like the weather in Seattle. I get a glimpse of hope, sunshine and clarity, and then the rainclouds of reality come and separate me from the vision for a while. The vision always comes back, and I know it's there in the distance, but there are days that are darker than others, and there are times when the clouds are simply very, very heavy.
Today is one of those days, Beloved.
I'm glad that You are with me today. I'm glad that You walk me through the dark valley when I'm there, and that You allow me to wrestle with You when I'm angry with Your peoples. Forgive me for the times that I take my anger out on them instead of You. Help me to be more creative with my interactions, and to use my imagination to heal where woundedness is clearly evident.
Lord, help us to reconcile with one another. Help Your peoples to aim for unity. I know that we miss the mark; that's why You came, Lord Jesus. With Your help, Beloved, we can improve our aim. In time, our practice of faith will become healthier in Your hands. One day we will be right on target, and walking the Way which You have given to us.
I hope that day comes soon.
Show me, Sophia-Spirit, what I can do to help the world draw closer to our Beloved. I desire to work with You, not against You. Help me to see through Your eyes. Amen.
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Tuesday, June 14, 2011
A Child's Eucharistic Celebration
Hear O Israel, the Lord is our God, the Lord alone. You shall love the Lord your God with all
your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your might. Keep these words that I am
commanding you today in your heart. Recite them to your children and talk about
them when you are at home and when you are away, when you lie down and when you
rise. Bind them as
a sign on your hand, fix them as an emblem on your forehead,
and write them on the doorposts of your house and on your
gates. (Deut. 6:4-9)
This morning, the preschooler that I nanny, who has just celebrated his third birthday, celebrated his first Eucharist. We weren't in a church building. There wasn't a lot of music or long prayers or chanting. Instead, his father and I were eating breakfast with him and watching the birds outside the window.
This morning, the preschooler that I nanny, who has just celebrated his third birthday, celebrated his first Eucharist. We weren't in a church building. There wasn't a lot of music or long prayers or chanting. Instead, his father and I were eating breakfast with him and watching the birds outside the window.
Friday, June 10, 2011
A Cup of Contentment
As I continue my summer vacation, or more precisely, as I begin to relax into the atmosphere of an unhurried relaxation period, I find myself re-entering contemplation. I was never very far from it, but there are times in the school year when contemplation must be placed to the side and a paper must be written despite not coming to a satisfactory conclusion. The more schooling I receive, the more I am aware that I have an insatiable appetite for learning. There is always more room to grow, and always deeper to dig. Perhaps no paper is truly ever finished. Time constraints and word counts place limitations on our expression, but each new class stimulates my mind and heart in ways that intimacy and passion arouse the body. What a precious gift it is to be able to attend seminary!
Some people will ask me when I will be done. I've even caught myself wondering this from time to time. But graduation is not the goal. Ordination is not even the end. No. Even those things are just marking places of new beginning.
Some people will ask me when I will be done. I've even caught myself wondering this from time to time. But graduation is not the goal. Ordination is not even the end. No. Even those things are just marking places of new beginning.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
A Lovely Visit
Beloved,
You have created us to be in community, to find friends and to be in relationship with other human beings. I am so blessed to have been visited by one of your beautiful daughters this afternoon. In all the months that it has been since my husband and I have been away from the church we attended for several years, this was the first time that one of the congregants have contacted us directly and asked to simply get together. What a joy it was to have her over! And what a delightful surprise for her to bring me flowers and cookies, too!
You have created us to be in community, to find friends and to be in relationship with other human beings. I am so blessed to have been visited by one of your beautiful daughters this afternoon. In all the months that it has been since my husband and I have been away from the church we attended for several years, this was the first time that one of the congregants have contacted us directly and asked to simply get together. What a joy it was to have her over! And what a delightful surprise for her to bring me flowers and cookies, too!
Friday, June 3, 2011
Summertime Serenity
Beloved,
As I delight in the freedom that comes from accomplishing all that needed to be done before the end of the term, I also bask in the light of the sunshine. Thank You, dear Lord, for this vibrantly beautiful day! Thank you for the stretching kitties basking in the light. Thank You for the fluttering sparrows and burrowing bunnies that my neighbor and I saw on our walk today.
As I delight in the freedom that comes from accomplishing all that needed to be done before the end of the term, I also bask in the light of the sunshine. Thank You, dear Lord, for this vibrantly beautiful day! Thank you for the stretching kitties basking in the light. Thank You for the fluttering sparrows and burrowing bunnies that my neighbor and I saw on our walk today.
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