My soul-sister wonders how many of my food issues may be a way of my body punishing itself for not living up to certain expectations, (both perceived and real). Although there have been a number of benefits to changing my diet (including increasing the amount of natural and whole foods in my system) there are enough foods that cause my body trauma for us to wonder if there is an emotional link.
How many of my recent ailments have something to do with shame or guilt? I'm not yet sure how to identify and/or combat it if there is that link. But it does inspire a prayer...
Beloved,
I have a great deal yet to learn about myself. I have much to learn about (and much to experience of) Your love. I desire to see You looking at me. I want to watch Your eyes as I take of my clothing and let You look at me. I want to feel the heat of passion and compassion as You draw near, as you caress and as You love me.
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| Photo by Trista Wynne |
Yesterday, through conversations with another prayer-sister, You helped me to see how guilty or ashamed I feel for "not measuring up". Right now I feel completely inadequate -- as a wife, as a daughter, as a lover, as a friend, as a minister, as a spiritual leader and as a nanny. Overall, as a person, I feel that I have failed.
You alone can make me whole. I'm looking for my reflection in Your eyes.
I feel guilty for having been born into a society that oppresses and enslaves other nations to do our bidding. I feel guilty for living when my food, electronics and clothing are grown or created with the spilled blood of my fellow human beings. The problems, the sin, is societal. I feel powerless to stop it...
You alone cane make the world whole. Help us see our reflection in Your eyes.
Amen.
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